Materialization of thinking
One of the biggest life challenges is the own expression of challenge, the rise of knowledge you claimed to have lost, due to lack of reinforcement.
That knowledge completes us, it makes us who we truly are. We are what we know, the same way we are what we constantly believe in, and tell ourselves. Some people say we are what we eat, and I am not going to disagree.
Sometimes I find myself looking at Peanut Butter and suddenly it all makes sense. The can might define me as much as the following 5 minutes my mind wanders, pretending a state of observation. If you look and wander for a short period of time, that’s okay. The issue is on the human problem-solver nature.
I am moved by doing better for those who surround me. I’m driven by the faith that everything will be better if I allow myself to be better. I am a strong believer in the networking, chain effect. I am in love with pain, the same way I am in love with joy. It’s all part of the process and we need to learn acceptance and surrender. The only truth is that we are all going through some sort of a journey, we are all struggling and we are all going to die.
Some days I lose faith and find myself questioning the basic intrinsic values of nature and doubting myself and the world. Those days are the worst. Those are the days I can’t materialise the expression of my thought processes.
We are limited by choice and we find ourselves dwelling on the scrutiny of the brief history of time. If you are sober enough to make decisions, actively choose to forget. Our capacity to say goodbye to undesirable neural connections might be the only reason some of us are able to face the day. Long term memory is when timing meets emotion. It might be harder to let go, but you are strong enough to block material clues.
We are both rational and emotional. I have tried to avoid suffering for too long, hoping that would make me happier. It’s the exact opposite. You need to learn to love suffering so you are okay with it. I think it’s easier if you just work on lowering the amplitude of your emotional rollercoaster. That might be the answer, but I understand most people don’t see it that way. I don’t get overly excited, but I also don’t get depressed. I’m not always happy, but I’m always hopeful and enthusiastic. Whenever I feel my receptors releasing an excess of dopamine, I neutralize it.
I can’t make sense of people who don’t wish to live. I can see suffering and yes, life is a challenge in itself but I see deeper. I see connection, duality and discovery.
By rationally justifying my own agony, I materialise my own soul. Let’s scale it: you have conditional freedom, you cause a lack of judgement and you scream controversy in the way you interact in the world. Kant would say the human mind is structured by experience, but I follow Descartes. I ask questions and I am aware all of my answers are guidelines for me to interact in the physical realm. I know nothing. And that’s exciting.